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ÿmam;alu ksid ÿla ú|mq yeá lshkak uu ,eÊcd kE

fldgfyafka ldisfpÜáf.a j;a; ;snqfKa Ydka; fnkäla úoHd,h wi, y;a jeks mgquf.ah' fndfydafokl= fï j;a; ye¢ka jQfha ldfiÜá j;a; kñks' óg jir mKylg fmr fï uq¿ j;af;a f.j,a 60lgu ;snqfKa j;=r mhsmam folls' ‍fmdÿ jeisls<s fma<shlao j;a; fl,jf¾ úh' 1934 § muK fuys mÈxÑhg meñKs ñßydk wdrÉÑf.a úkaikaÜ fmf¾rd fldgfyafkau mÈxÑlrefjl= jQ w;r Tyqf.a ìß| wÆ;a.u f,jka¥fõ Wmka ,shkf.a tu,s fmf¾rd kï úh'
fï hqj<g odj 1943 wf.daia;= 23 fjksod l=Kq fuda, frday‍f,a§ ^iq.;odi l%Svdx.Kh bÈßmi isßudfjda nKavdrkdhl udjf;a we;s ta' tÉ'tï' *jqis ud;D idhkh tl, lgjpkfhka ye¢kajqfKa ta kñks& Wmka ;=kajeks orejd
ñßydk wdrÉÑf.a kkaod ud,skS fmf¾rd kï úh' kkaodg ifydaor ifydaoßfhda wg fofkla isáhy' 

1984 l,amkd iÕrdjg ‍‍‍fcHIaG udOHfõ§ md,s; fmf¾rd ,shQ ,smshlg kkaodf.a mshd ksy;udkSj fufia m%ldY fldg ;snqKs' wfma uq¿ f.hu l=iaish;a tlal lE,s ;=khs' meÿre oud f.khs uf.a <uhs kj fokdu fï lE,s fofla ksod .;af;a' uq¿ f.gu ;snqfKa tlu l=mams ,dïmqjhs'

uf.a ;d;a;d fÜ,¾ flfkla' yhsv%dukS iud.fï lg¾ flfkla yeáhg ;uhs jev lf<a' ;d;a;dg ljqre;a l;d lf<a fldaÜ ndiqkakefya lsh,d' wms b;du ÿmam;a mjq,la' ;d;a;d wmsj yeÿfõ fndfydu wudrefjka' ;d;a;d yhsv%dukS iud.fï ojiu jev lr,d f.or weú,a,;a ? fjklka we÷ï uy, wu;r uqo,la yïn l<d' uf.a ;d;a;d i;H.rel" wjxl fl<ska jev l<" lsisfjl=g w; fkdmE" ldgj;a Kh ke;s m%;sm;a;s .rel mqoa.,fhla' uf.a Ôú;fha oeka wjqreÿ 70la f.ú,' oeka uu wdmyq yeß, n,k fldg uf.a pß;h ‍fmdaIKh fj,d ;sfhkafka ;d;a;df.a .;s .=Kj,ska lsh,d ug ysf;kjd' 

we;a;u lsõfjd;a wms fõ,la wer fõ,la lEjd lsõfjd;a ksjerÈhs' wmsg we÷ï me<÷ï ;snqfKa kE' yqÕla ojiaj, biafldaf, hoa§ wms Wfoag ld, .sfha b¢ wdmam folhs' w;g Y; 02la ,enqKd' wms im;a;= oeïfï kE' ,S j,ska yomq lÜg  fifrmamq lsh, cd;shla ta ojiaj, ;snqKd' yß ,dnhs' tajd ;uhs wmsg ;d;a;d wrka ÿkafka' ug ;snqK .jqu ?g fydao,d od,d w;ska /<s yodf.k Wfoag mdi,a we|f.k .shd' wo fuõjd lshkak uu ,eÊcd kE' kkaodf.a u;lh wE;ska wE;g .sfha wehg;a fkdoekSuh' 

kkaod bf.kqu ,nd we;af;a fldgfyafka .=Kdkkao úoHd,fhah' ñf.Ügqj;af;a .=Kdkkao yduqÿrejka isysfjkak yomq mdi,ls  ta' idys;Hh" l,dj" nqoaOd.u W.kajk" isiqkaf.a l,d ridiajdoh ÈhqKq l< wdpd¾h uKav,hla isàu kkaodf.a jdikdjg fya;=jla jQy' wef.a mka;sfha isá l,djg ,eÈ tlu isiqjd jQfha úlag¾ úl%uf.ah' 

uf.a m%sh;u .dhk Ys,amskshka fofokd jqfKa Ô'tia'ì' rdKs fmf¾rd iy relauŒ foaù' wo;a Ô'tia'ì'rdKs fmf¾rdf.a .S wykak uu leu;shs' uf.a hï l=i,;djla ;snqKd kï th jgyd .ekSug foujqmshkag Yla;shla ;snqfKa kE' ta l=i,;dj oelafla" uu idys;H iñ;sfha ,S j,ska ilia l< fõÈldfõ isg Yd,dj fl,jrg weiSug lú lshkq wid isá tï' ud.%Ü fmf¾rd .=re;=ñhhs' ^weh wo n;a;ruq,a‍f,a .euqKq udjf;a mÈxÑj isáhs& uu ta ld‍f,a m%isoaOj ysáfha lú lshk kkaod yeáhg' ud.%Ü .=re uEKshka udj .=jka úÿ,sfha <ud uKavmh lrmq lreKdr;ak wfífialr uy;a;hg y÷kajd ÿkakd'

uy;a;hd" fï <uhd .dhkhg olaI wfma biafldaf, bkak ÿmam;a <ufhla' mq¿jka Wmldrhla lrkak' weh lreKdr;ak wfífialrhkag kkaod y÷kajd § we;af;a tfiah' 
wjqreoaolg miafia wehg .=jka úÿ,sfha <ud uKavmfha” ;ksju .S;hla .hkak wjia:djla ,eìK' 
nqÿ idÿ'''''' nqÿ idÿ
uu iuka je<la fjkakï
fï .S;h kkaodg rpkd lr ÿkafka wfidal fld<Uf.a h' ã'ã' vekS ;kqj ks¾udKh lr ÿkafkah' wef.a <ud uKavmfha ñ;=re ñ;=ßhka jQfha u,a,sld o is,ajd ^lyúg&" iqO¾ud o is,ajd pkao%dks reo%s.= ^.=Kj¾Ok&" Wmq,a rkacka úf–j¾Ok ^úfYaI{ ffjoH& m%sïfrdaia chisxy ^ffjoH& tia' ,shkf.a" rxð;a kjr;ak" meÜßla m%kdkaÿ" úð; l=iqï wd§kah' 

nqÿ idÿ .S;fhka miq kkaod .ek wjOdkfhka isá wurfoaj" tÉ'tï' .=Kfialr" uvj, tia'r;akdhl" úu,a wNhiqkaor" uy.ufialr" fvda,agka w,aúia" vkaiagka o is,ajd" ;s,l iqO¾uka o is,ajd" ir;a úu,ùr jeks úYsIag l,dlrejka moHdj,sh" uOqjka;s" ks¾udK f¾Ld" l,amkd jeks jevigykaj, moH .dhkhg;a" w;aje,a .dhkhg;a weh iyNd.s lr .;ay' 

1959 .=jka úÿ,sfha fjf<| fiajfha wdOqksl .dhkd ;r.hlska uq,a ;ek ,nd .ekSu fldgfyafka kkaodf.a Ôú;fha ;j;a ux i,l=Kla úh' lreKdr;ak wfífialr fufyhjQ fï ;r.fhka fojk ;ek Èkqfõ miqld,Skj úYsIag .dhlfhl= yd ix.S;{fhl= jQ lvq.kakdfõ úlag¾ r;akdhlh' 
ug fï ;r.fhka uq,a ia:dkh ,eìu ksid fndïndhg hdug .=jka álÜ m;la ;E.s jYfhka ysñ jqKd' ta .uk hkafka ke;akï ta fjkqjg re' 1200 la ,nd.ekSfï wjia:dj ;snqKd' uu remsh,a 1"200 ,nd f.k ta uqo,ska f.org ,hsÜ wrf.k b;sß uqo,ska úÿ,s bia;sßlalhla yd ud,hla .;a;d' kkaod ch.%dyS yskdjla uqjg k.d .ksñka lSjdh'

kkaodf.a ix.S; Ôú;fha fjkila we;s jkafka 1961 w. Nd.fha§h' ojila wurfoaj i¾ wfma mqxÑ f.org wdjd' ug tal woyd .kakj;a neß;rï isoaêhla' 
uu wdfõ kkaoj Ñ;%mghl isxÿjla lshkak tlal hkak wjir b,a,kak' lsh,d wurfoaj i¾ lshkfldg ug ;j;a woy.kak neß jqKd'
Ñ;%mgfha ku rka uq;= ¥j' udj wurfoaj i¾ fld,aÆmsáfha iriú Ñ;%d.drhg tlal .shd' t;ek uhsla ú,aika" fYaId m,sylaldr";siai ,shkiQßh uy;a;=re ysáhd' ud iu. hq. .Sh .hkak ysáh kdro Èidfialr;a weú;a ysáhd' ug t;fldg jhi wjqreÿ 16la ú;r we;s' fldákau uu uhsla tlgj;a Wi keye' Yío mßmd,l u¾úka reo%s.= uy;a;hd udj uhsla tlg Wi ke;s ksid mqxÑ nxl=jla Wäka Wiai,d ;sínd' 

.,k .Õls Ôúf;a ohd¨ f,dalfha
fï .S;h w;sYhska ckm%sh jqKd' Ñ;%mgfha .dñKs yd ÔjrdKs isá cjksldjl miqìñka .ehQ ksid;a" Ñ;%mgh w;sYhskau ckm%sh jQ ksid;a ug;a ;ekla ,enqKd'kkaod lSjdh'  tmuKla fkdj 1964 meje;s uq,au iriú Ñ;%mg iïudk Wf<‍f,a§ fyd|u .dhsldj f,i ta .S;h i|yd kkaodg iriú iïudkho ysñúh' 
uf.a Ôúf;a yqiau ;sfhklï wurfoaj i¾g mska fokjd' rka uq;= ¥fjka uu kej; bmÿKd' fï .S;h ksid ldfiÜá j;af;a ñksiaiq ug ie,ls,a,la olajkak mgka .;a;d' fldgfyafka wfma fl,af,la lma tl .eyeõfj lsh,d' 

rcfha ix.S; úoHd,hg ne£ ix.S;h yeoErE weh ì' úlag¾ fmf¾rd" fma%uodi uqÿkafldgqj hgf;a jeä ÿr bf.k ,lakõ Nd;aLKafâ ix.S; úoHd mSGfhka m%:u mka;s idud¾:fhka ix.S; úYdro Wmdêh ,enqjdh' 
ix.S; úoHd,hg ne£u tla;rd w;lska kkaodf.a Ôú;h bß ;e,Sug fya;=jla jQ nj weh lshkakSh' th ixl%dka;s iuhls' wdf,dalh;a w÷r;a tlg leá jQ ta ld,fha wehg fma%ujka;fhla uqK .eiqKs' fï ksid oyku jeks úfha§ wehg újdy ùug isÿúh' fï újdyh wid¾:l tlla úh' 

ug Ôj;a ùug Yla;shla ,enqfKa ix.S;h ksihs' óg 28 jirlg fmr kqf.af.dv úchnd udjf;a ksjfia§ werUqKq ix.S; wdY%uh ix.S;h bf.k .ekSug meñKs isiq isiqúhkaf.a ;lai,djla jqKd' ta w;ru Ñ;%mg /il .S .ehSug wjia:dj ,enqKd' iïudk /ila ,enqKd'kkaod lSjdh' 
iriú iïudk 14lao ckdêm;s iïudk 11 lao iaj¾K ixL iïudk we;=¿j weh ,enQ iïudk ish .Kkls'  iqu;s iïudk Wf<‍f,a§ lsishï l,dlrefjl=g Ôú;fha tljrla msfok hQ' ví,sõ' iqu;smd, wkqiaurK iïudkh 2007 jif¾ Èkd .;af;a kkaodh' 
kkaod leiÜ mghlg .ehQ nqÿ ;d;af;a fndkak tmd .S;h ksid wef.a mshd oeä wmyiq;djlg m;ajQ whqre kkaod i|yka lf<a fõokdfjks' 

fï .S;h ta ld‍f,a yßhg ckm%sh jqKd' uf.a ;d;a;d u;ameka" is.rÜ" iqreÜgq" Ôúf;ag ì,d keye' fï .S;h weiQ yhsv%dukS wdh;kfha ndiqkakefya,d ;d;a;dg fufyu lsõjÆ' 
úkaikaÜ ndiqkakefy wmsg fndkafka keye lsõjg Th ÿj lsh, ;sfhkafka we;a;u' 
fïl wy, ;d;a;d udj yïnfj,d ug fodia lsõjd' WU lrk jev yskaod ug wj,do wykak jqKd' lsh,d lsõjd' ;ud fï isoaêh ksid oeä is;a fõokdjg m;ajQ nj weh lshhs'
kkaod ‍fmd;am;a lshùugo reisfhls' ;ud uff;la lshjQ ‍fmd;m; w;ßka uelaisï f.da¾lsf.a wïud lD;shg weh leu;s  kjl;dfõ wïud ;udf.a wïud fkdfõoehs is;+ ksidh' wïud fkdld orejkag lkak ÿkak wjia:d kkaod ;ju;a u;la lrkakSh' 
kkaod iqn kel;a" rdyq ld,h úYajdi fkdl<dh' kuq;a weh f.or nqÿ myk fkd;ndkï f.oßka msg jkafka ke;' 
uu f.!rj lrkafka nqÿka jykafiag muKhs' uf.a foaj úYajdih keye' uf.a fyd|u jev j,§ uu nqÿka jykafiag ;sfhk nqÿ myk .ek ú;rhs úYajdih ;nkafka' uf.a iEu m%d¾:kdjlau wl=rgu bgq fj,d ;sfnkjd' 

uf.a Ôú;fha fyd|u ñ;=rd" WmfoaYlhd" fmr .ukalrejd uydpd¾h iqks,a wdßhr;ak' iqks,a mdi,a hk ld‍f,a Tyqf.a uq,au ir, .Sh il=rd u,a msms,d .S;h ,sõfõ ughs' tys ;kq ks¾udKh uf.a' iqks,af.a mjq‍f,a yefudau uf.a Ôú;fha ÿl iem n,d .;a;d' 
wms ta ;rï iómhs' uf.a Ñka;kh fjkia lf<a Tyqhs' .S;  f;dard .ekSug" úúO ffY,sfha ks¾udK lsÍug Tyqf.ka ,enqKq wkqm%dKhg uu Kh .e;shs' kkaod lSjdh' 
kkaod b;d ir," w,afmaÉP Ôú;hla .; lrkakshls'

ug yqÕla foaj,a ;snqfKa keye' uu l%ufhka ir, Ôú;hlg yqre jqKd' uu cx.u ÿrl:khla Ndú;d lrkafka keye' ug ,emafgdma" B fï,a" f*aianqla keye' fldákau kj ;dlaI
Kh;a tlal keye' ug ta .ek wjfndaOhla ke;s ksid tajd okak whf.ka Wmldr ,nd .kakjd' ug ,enqK foaj,a kdia;s lr .;af;a keye' w;HjYHu foa ñi f.or fjk lsisjla kE' 
uu ;ju;a ix.S;h bf.k .kakjd' fï <Õla fjklka fma%uodi uqÿkafldgqj i¾f.ka rúkao% ix.S;h bf.k .;a;d' ug ;ju fyd|g iskaÿ lshkak mq¿jka' uf.a fi!LHh fyd|hs'

uf.a f,dl= ÿj jreKs újdy jqfKa O¾uisß .uf.a whshdf.a mqf;l= jQ pñkao iu.' Tjqkag rkaÈ lsh,d ÿjla bkakjd' offjks ¥ wud újdy ù isákafka ixÔj iu.' Tjqkag fk;= lsh,d ÿjla bkakjd' pñkao" ixÔj nEK, fokak;a uf.a ÿj, jf.au ug wdofrhs' uf.a ÿl iem n,kak oeka iqks,a" frdayK ùrisxy" l=,r;ak wdßhjxY yd iS;d" iuka w;djqofyÜá jf.a mqxÑ msßila bkakjd' ta fyd|gu we;s' uf.a nd, kx.s chka;s yd wef.a ieñhd wfidal" wïud ;d;a;d jf.a mjq‍f,a wks;a whf.a ÿl iem n,kjd' uf.a ÿj,g nEK,g;a fï fokakd fijke,a, jf.a bkafka' b;ska ug ;j fudkjo wvq@” kkaod ieye,aÆfjka iskdfiñka lSjdh'

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